Spirit Chronicles: Light Orbs

Last night I took the dogs out to the bathroom prior to bed time and was struck with the feeling of something or someone being all around me. Out property is very spiritual and some old land and as I noticed whoever was touching my head and arm I pulled my camera out to take a few pictures and videos. I walked around the yard and snapped some pictures and made a few short videos as the “spidy senses” I call them continued to accelerate. I saw a light orb close to me and then it came by my camera and I hoped that I caught it and to my surprise I did.

Actually it came in front of my camera four times during the period of about five minutes of video. You may say it was probably a bug or a trick of the light. I am quickly becoming a veteran spirit hunter and assumed it to be a bug myself. I sat down at the computer, downloaded the video and went through it frame by frame and there it was a light orb “white” light which tells me it was a positive spirit right there on film. I stopped it, edited it and made it larger and it was an obvious “light orb” and not a bug. It was fast and came and went within a few seconds.

An untrained eye would not have caught it but I have been doing this awhile so I was able to see it. At one point of the video I asked it to show itself because I could sense it around me. About five seconds after that request the white orb came into the view of the camera lens on my phone. It went across and back and then came up and down a little later. As I walked around the yard a few more orbs appeared in the video at different phases and were gone quickly. I will be out there tonight with the camera to see if I can catch it again to try and debunk the video I made yesterday.

I have caught voices on recorders, EMF detections and other video than last night. The land we live on is very spiritual and has lots of activity so I am excited about what I can see, hear and film in the future and trying to figure out who the light orb is and what it wants. I have to be careful as well, but my senses can help me be guided as to how to deal with and what I am dealing with. I was told by an advisor to look for orbs and they are finally showing up for me as I make the transition into working with the spirit realm.

Americana- Off Shore Fishing With Dad

Growing up and into my late 30’s we always took family vacations to the beach. When we did my dad, brothers and I would take a day trip with a Captained boat to go out and do some off shore fishing. My dad loved to fish and we often would catch the limit on about every fish we got into to. The last trip we took before my dad got where he could barely see and walk was on a boat called the Captain Stacy. We went out of Morehead City, NC into the deep waters of the Atlantic Ocean about 25 miles off the coast of North Carolina.

My dad, two brothers and myself went on this trip. After about a three or four hour boat ride out into the Atlantic into 150-300 feet deep water we put our lines in and soon began to catch Dolphin (not flipper folks) but the actual fish called a Dolphin. We then got into some Amberjack which are big and strong and give one hell of a fight to get into the boat. We fished out the limit on both of those so we moved into some deeper water in search of some bigger game fish.

We put anchor down and suddenly things got hot again and we hit a school of Spanish and King Mackerel and hit the individual limit on both of them. I cannot remember I think it was like 5-7 per person and we had a good time tearing them up and getting them on board the boat. Mackerel is a bony fish that doesn’t eat that well so we gave them to the people who show up everyday at the local docks when the boats come in so they could eat them.

The day continued and we found ourselves surrounded by five or six other boats because we were hitting the fish hard and catching them like crazy on every cast. Other than a few that broke the line or fought off we tore them up that day. Late in the day before coming back in for the three hour return trip we hooked into a large shark. My dad fought it first and then one by one we took turns fighting that beast. It breached the water three times to let us get a hint of his size and power but we never could get it close to the boat.

The last time the shark jumped out of the water three hours later as it was still fighting the Captain got a good glimpse of it and determined based on his experience that we had hooked a 8-10 foot long Tiger Shark that likely weighed in the area of 400-600 pounds. He told us we would not get that thing on the boat and it was best to cut it loose and let it go. He also reminded us that it was getting late in the afternoon and we needed to head back before it got dark. The last thing he said was we really don’t want that full grown adult shark close to a 30 foot boat anyways.

It was big enough to pull the boat around and mean. One huge, lean, mean eating machine. So we cut the line and let it go. That shark won the battle that day as he proceeded to wear all of us out. One by one he kicked our butts and sent us packing and we are all healthy and strong men. My dad was older but was still a 6’4 340 pound mans man and the most experienced of us all and it wore him down also. Just as we were cutting the line my brother hooked a good size fish and as he was reeling it in and just as it was coming out of the water it got hit by another Tiger shark.

This one was not as big but was mean and about 6-7 feet long and he was a monster. He bit the 18 inch long fish in half and kicked his tail at us as to say better stay on that boat. As a kid I spent lots of time in the ocean playing, swimming and fishing for two weeks every summer. But that sunny day in July showed me a life lesson that we are humans and are meant to be on a boat and not in that water out there. We may be the ultimate predator on ground, but those big sharks are the rulers of the deep. They can have the deep water and I will stay my big butt right in the shallows where it belongs.

We lost dad in 2009 and man would I love to fight another big shark or just catch a few pond bass with him. One of these days we will fish again. Dad, thanks for the memories growing up at the beach. Thanks for teaching us how to fish, be men of faith and take care of our families like you did for so long. Happy fishing in Heaven dad!

Love, Hugs and Kisses in Heaven!

Spirit Chronicles: Attack of the Light Beings

An invasion of aliens came in on the earth really fast.  These light beings flew in on these invisible stealthy ships and landed.  As they came in only certain people could see them and try to warn others.  They were seven to eight feet tall and kind of looked like a shadowy figure with light coming from them.  We were at a football game and when it ended the clouds came over really heavy and made seeing the sun almost blacked out.  In those clouds were these ships that were blended into the clouds.  Cell service was interrupted because I tried to take a picture of the ships when I told people about them they couldn’t see them.  I pointed my camera towards the clouds to snap a photo or record and it began to show a fuzzy screen.

I tried to get it to work and borrowed another phone and it did the same thing.  Outside the fence of the football stadium there were these light beings beginning to walk towards the field and the fence.  I could see them and when I panicked the others around me knew something was wrong.  Then another woman screamed and began to run because she saw them marching in a side by side pattern towards the stadium.  Everyone in the stadium was stuck with nowhere to go so I ran to the fence to try and lock the gate so they could not get inside.  They pushed through the fence and past me and did not touch me or look at me.  They continued to walk across the stadium clearing it one by one.  One by one the people were taken and loaded into these floating bubbles that would quickly take flight and be absorbed into the main ship floating over the stadium.

The main ship was about the size of an aircraft carrier three to four hundred feet long and there were several of them visible.  The local military base sent its war aircraft to check the scene and a battle began.  Our aircraft had no chance against the alien invaders and one by one they were eliminated by these round shaped ships that came flowing out of the main ship  by the thousands.  They were like little five feet round objects that moved at light speed and had a very powerful light beam or laser that destroyed anything they shot.  All of our planes were destroyed and then these small air bubble ships began to shoot at the people that were running.  I looked at my phone and a screen had popped on like a video game screen that showed the ships and their location.  

I am a terrible video game player and I had taken refuge inside a small building to hide and watch the carnage.  I began to mash buttons and realized that I had somehow gained access to the main ship and could destroy the small ones by shooting them with the video game screen.  That is when they began to attack me so I ran as fast as I could and hid behind the bleachers.  The stadium was older and the concrete seemed to block their ships radar and they could not see me or find me.  I weaved my way in and out of the concrete sections hiding and shooting them down.  A teenager then joined me and he was panicking.  I asked him if he was good at video games and he said yes.  I gave him my phone and told him to destroy these things.

As he fought alongside me I began to attack and fight the individual beings and realized that they could not breathe our air so I used whatever I could to bust a hole in their helmets and when I did they would evaporate like a human would in space.  I picked up one of the guns they were using and could not get it to fire so I attacked one of the beings and killed him.  I took his bio suit and out it on and then I was able to fire the weapon.  The weapon was somehow a biological weapon and was attached as part of the bio suit.  Others joined me and the battle moved into the small neighborhoods in town.  People were fighting with guns, knives and whatever they could but most died in the process.  

A group gathered in a building hidden in the woods and planned how to survive and began to fight back.  We gathered food, water and weapons to survive with and I woke up.  This dream was like living in a real science fiction novel or movie.  It was as real as sitting here and typing the story about it.  I can still see the image of the beings walking towards the stadium and beginning to take people away.  I can still hear the gunfire, the planes, the lasers and all the activity that happened in this dream.  It was very disturbing and is similar to a series of dreams I have had about apocalyptic type things like this.

Spirit Chronicles: Darkness Fell on the Land

I had a dream about the darkness rising in America and the fall of America as the greatest country in the world.  Big cities have begun to plunge into turmoil due to anarchy and lost ethics and morals. This is also spreading into the suburbs and small towns across the country.  I saw people in suits surrounded by $$ signs (big tech) helping to spread the ideals of darkness on people.  I saw sin in the form of a beautiful woman that turned into a demon as a symbol of the sinful nature of mankind and how the desires of flesh and sin have become normal and acceptable. 

I saw men and women of power with black eyes representing darkness as Government leaders are not of the light. These people were deceptive leaders full of deep rooted darkness led by a desire for power, greed, money and control over all aspects of citizens.  I saw darkness fall upon the land sending it into a modern day fight for the survival of the country.  But this one is fought using social media, news outlets, the internet and other web based activity that Americans have become addicted to. 

I saw young people with blinds on representing the mind sweep that is going on with social media and the lack of respect being taught to them by parents. A new generation of kids that cannot think for themselves was being formed and will be used as part of the great deception that will continue to occur. Social media shows it and they believe it. I saw a virus released on mankind represented by a viral bug and a man standing there with a lab coat with dark eyes. He was part of the release of some type of global virus yet to come.

I saw free signs and people then fighting, rioting and hurting others when all the free ran low or was no longer available. I saw homeless people, streets on fire and drugs representing part of the demise of America. The plans for social change and social control fail and the country becomes chaotic.  I saw a huge light at the end and people going towards it. That represented the people that turned away from the darkness that fell on America and were still faithful and true to God and his word. I saw an Angel, the US Flag and a Family standing near each other. These represented the union of good and the light force that will eventually win the battle over darkness. God, Country and Family for life!

Spirit Chronicles: The Kidnap Killer

I dreamed about a man that had been kidnapping women and killing them. During this dream I saw three women being taken at various places and was actively involved in the hunt for the killer. Every lead I had fell short and then I saw him take a young lady and drop her off in an alley way. She was draped in a yellow sheet or possibly a yellow rain coat. She was dead and he left her lying there like a piece of trash. I was so mad at him and he walked by me and I got a look at his face. He was around 5’10 and 180 pounds. Late twenties to early thirties with ear length sandy blond hair and dark eyes.

He walked by me and as I was observing him he looked down and pulled a hoodie over his head to try and conceal his identity. I then saw a man in a wheel chair and his brother that takes care of him daily. Both of these men either know the guy or have seen him before. The man in the wheel chair has cystic fibrosis and does not speak but uses a voice box to talk. The brother is older and has a disability also but he can take care of his brother. The brother was on the phone talking to someone and I could not get him to see me or hear me.

I was seeing this from the third eye view looking in. I was not involved in the actual process was watching from the outside. The thing that got me confused was the killer seemed to see me even though no one else could. That tells me that he is evil and knows that I am of the light. That is why he likely can see me and knows I saw him. This may be an older event or something that is current. I will have to do some research on it and see if anyone has been killing people in the area that I cam currently in. I can dream and have visions of the past, present and future and will have to solve this one or it will drive me crazy thinking about it.

Spirit Chronicles: House On the Hill

I saw a huge house built of granite up on a hill way above the ground I was standing on. It was built solid and surrounded by tall Angels holding golden staffs. The Angels were over ten feet tall and were standing guard over the giant house on the hill. The house had twelve huge windows and seven massive doors. Angels smaller than the protectors were coming in and out of those doors bringing people in and out of the granite house. The house was made of granite but shined like crystals of all colors. It was beautiful and very soothing to look at. I knew there was a superior being inside of the house and as people went in and out they transformed into happy people.

Near me was a line of people standing single file in a line that went for miles. People of all ages, races, creeds, and backgrounds standing patiently waiting for their opportunity to go in the huge house on the hill. Not far away was another line of unhappy people that were being held back by a fence of light that they could not pass by. It burned them when they tried to pass by it and made them turn back. These people were lost souls that wanted to reach the house on the hill but had made bad choices in life and died without knowing God.

A wonderful trumpet sounded and every window and door on the huge house on the hill became bright with Gods light. The people in line began to fly into the windows one by one and be absorbed in the windows and doors. They were becoming part of the light of God and getting their reward for being faithful servants and knowing God. This was an end of times tribulation type dream that was a message of hope, grace and mercy for those that are still alive.

A day will come as written in the Bible that all things will come to pass and we will all be accountable of our actions, thoughts, and behaviors. More importantly we will be held to Gods standards and will either get new life or spend eternity on the other side of the light fence looking in. Longing for the freedoms, beauty and love inside the huge mansion on the hill. That mansion is Gods house and was built for his people and those that honor him while they are alive.

John 14:2; In my Father’s house are many rooms. If it were not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you?

Revelation 21:8; But as for the cowardly, the faithless, the detestable, as for murderers, the sexually immoral, sorcerers, idolaters, and all liars, their portion will be in the lake that burns with fire and sulfur, which is the second death.”

Spirit Chronicles: The Skull Men and The River of Life

I dreamed that I was standing on a hill overlooking a beautiful valley with a winding river that sounded very soothing. In that river there were people swimming and splashing around enjoying themselves. On the banks of the river on each side were dead men made of bones. They were just skeletons standing at the rivers edge but they could not join the fun or get into the water. In the water was another man standing there and he had a strong presence about him. He was an ancient spirit that was good and of the light. This ancient one was overseeing the living and making sure they were happy and not hurt by the skeleton men.

The skeleton men tried to step into the water but when they did they would dissolve as the water hit their bones and disappear as if they never were there. Some of the skeletons were walking with beagle dogs and were attached to them with a leash. The dogs were basically dragging them away from the water and they would go off into the woods and return without the skeleton men and get another. Another man with a whistle was standing there directing the dogs to take the skeletons into the woods.

The dead could not touch him either. When they tried the dogs would attack, grab them and pull them into the dark woods near the water. The woods near the water around the immediate edge were flowery and pretty. The trees were alive and full of flowers and leaves like life itself. The woods a few feet away where the skeletons were being dragged was dark, dense and scary. Nothing could go in and out but the dogs. These dogs were not afraid of the skeleton men and did as the master told them to do and reacted to the dog whistle on command. They were loyal, brave and of the light.

The skeletons continued to try and enter the water but would just wash away or evaporate. They were dead souls, lost souls and wondering spirits that had not found the light before they died. They had spent their lives doubting God and his mercy and salvation and were paying for it. The woods were hell and the water was heaven. The skeletons were doomed to the woods and could not enter the wonderful water and join the heavenly flow. They instead were dragged away by the light worker dogs on command and sent to the darkness and the woods as stated in the Bible.

I woke up and wrote down the dream, I did some research about seeing skeletons, the river and the dogs. I sat down and wrote this dream and am still seeing those wonderful people enjoying the waters. We all will lose our flesh and eventually become a spirit. Will we be placed into the wonderful water for life everlasting or will we become a skeleton and be doomed into the dark woods. I will be a light worker, a warrior of God and take the river. I love the water and when I am in it I say this simple prayer.

Lord, please cleanse me, wash me and make me whole. I repeat that a few times and end with an amen. Try it sometime and see what happens. Step into the water and wait for God to take care of you. Now and forever!

John 7: 3-8; Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, ‘Out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.’”

Revelation 22:1; Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, bright as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb.

Faith- What To Do When You Need Patience

Today as I am trying to pack to go on the yearly summer vacation I find myself needing patience. I am generally laid back and a pretty patient person (exceptions traffic and drive through Windows). I am not sure why but those two things tend to get under my skin especially a drive through if the people in the car with me do not know what they want or keep changing their mind. I get to the point of “just flipping order something”. Patience is required in life as we spend lots of time waiting at the doctor, stores, drive throughs, traffic, restaurants and in my case waiting on a woman (my wife and two daughters). Seems like it takes them forever to make up their mind on clothes and getting dressed.

Then when we go shopping it takes forever to go in the store and grab stuff. That turns into an all day shopping excursion and I have things to do at home. God wants us to be patient and patience in mentioned in his word in both the new and old testament. I have to exercise patience as a public school teacher and coach with teenagers. I have to get better at being patient and the only way I can do that is to work on it hard. Focus on it and ask the Lord for patience and grace in that process. Being patient is kind, loving, friendly, helpful, avoids stress and anxiety. Being patient is what God expects us to be when dealing with our family and friends. Being patient requires us to submit to Gods plan in our lives and live the best we can and “wait”. For me that is the hard part!

James 5: 7-8; Be patient, therefore, brothers, until the coming of the Lord. See how the farmer waits for the precious fruit of the earth, being patient about it, until it receives the early and the late rains. You also, be patient. Establish your hearts, for the coming of the Lord is at hand.

Psalm 37:39; Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way, over the man who carries out evil devices! Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath! Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil. For the evildoers shall be cut off, but those who wait for the Lord shall inherit the land.

Faith- Lukewarm Spirituality

I am 100% convicted of the title of todays faith based lesson. I have been a spiritual person since I was just a young boy but have had times in my life when I was lukewarm at best. In fact, I have been less than lukewarm at times in my journey with God. The bible refers to this as non being mindful or watchful of God’s work in your life. Life throws all kinds of curve balls at us and the Devil loves to step in and get between us and the Lord. Lukewarm spirit can be compared to lukewarm work habits, relationships and family matters.

If we are lukewarm we will face things that we are not prepared for and those things will take us down. We have to constantly be in prayer and seek guidance from God to make sure that we stay Red hot for God and not go lukewarm. You do not have to church every week to be red hot on fire for God. We choose our relationships with family, spouses, co-workers and God. We build habits within ourselves that determine how we do in these areas of our lives. Laziness creates lukewarm behaviors and lukewarm results.

God wants us to be more than lukewarm for him. He seeks us daily and consistently watches over us and wants us to reach back to him. We must not just seek him in bad times but at all times. God is never lukewarm and we should not be either. If we are lukewarm in a marriage then it will suffer. If we are lukewarm at a sporting event or when playing then out performance will suffer. If we are lukewarm at work then out performance will suffer.

I had to look at myself and think about my Luke warmness in life at times. I had to look at myself in all aspects to make sure I stayed on fire for God and that he can continue to influence me and lead me to what he wants me to be. Avoid be lukewarm by doing the following things in your life daily. This will keep you on fire in your relationships, career, outside activities and most importantly with God himself.

1- Pray everyday without fail. Failure to pray is failing to seek God in your life.

2- Check yourself to see where you stand in all aspects of your work life, family life and spiritual life.

3- Change what is broken. Get rid of old habits by creating good ones that are productive and never be lukewarm in anything you have passion about.

4- Work hard at all aspects of life and go for red hot in everything that is important to you.

5- Pray, Pray and Pray some more and watch God become red hot in your life.

2nd Corinthians 13:5; Examine yourselves, to see whether you are in the faith. Test yourselves. Or do you not realize this about yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you?—unless indeed you fail to meet the test!

Leadership 101- 12 Effective Habits of Great Leaders

1- The very best coaches motivate, inspire and lead the organization with intention, purpose, dedication, discipline, desire and an create energy around them constantly. 

2- The really effective coaches never use intimidation, power, embarrassment or other negativity to teach the required skills needed to be successful in life, sports, work and play.  

3- Great coaches are great life teachers that lead by example, share their history, success, failure, wins and losses to grow the team, individual and build life long relationships.  

4- The best coaches keep the game in perspective and know that winning, losing, upsets, setback, victory, injury, goals and are all about life after the sport and game has ended.

5- Great coaches never let their ego, pride or willingness to win override team goals, personal matters and individual accomplishment.  

6- Great coaches understand the individual strengths and skills of each player and how they can be developed for the overall improvement of the player, staff and team.

7- The best coaches coach the individual, team and staff with intention of growing their skills and winning.

8- The best coaches are always flexible and fir the players into their system of success growing the team skills constantly. 

9- The great coaches are communicators that lead with their voice, actions and behavior.  

10- Great coaches listen to their players, staff and parents actively to gauge where they are in relationships and overall growth of the organization.

11- Great coaches just do not talk the talk, they walk the walk.

12- Great coaches teach life skills, winning, losing, integrity, hard work, dedication, discipline, team work, overcoming, and so many other needed life skills for adult success after the game iv over.

Life Hacks 101- 10 Things Coaches, Managers and Go Getters Look For

Today we are talking about traits that coaches value and look for in their student athletes that cost nothing but time, energy and work ethic.  These traits also are what business owners, companies, managers, leaders and other people looking for talent expect. These traits set you apart from others and can make you a great player, worker, leader, parent, teacher, business owner and whatever it is you want to be.  If I can get my athletes to learn these by my actions, behaviors and results then as a coach I have accomplished my goals and the rest will take care of itself.  

1- Time management skills- Are you on time, are you early for class, practice, work and ready to go when the bell, alarm or clock strikes and its go time.

2- Great work ethic- Do you exhibit a work ethic that people cannot deny and one that shows you are a true go getter.

3- Positive energy- Are you a positive person that exudes positive traits and thoughts. Do people want to be around you and grow with you.

4- Positive attitude- Do you see the glass half full or half empty.  Does your attitude reflect goodness, kindness, love and respect for others.

5- Being prepared- Are you prepped and ready for completing tasks, work assignments, school work and other demands life throws at you.  Do you do what it takes to be ready to roll, ready to work and ready to win.

6- Passion- Are you passionate about your family, friends, job, sport or life.  Passion can override talent and lots of other traits many times.  Give me  passionate learner and I will take that over talent any day of the week.

7- Discipline- Do you show discipline in your actions, behaviors and life.  Do you have what it takes to be disciplined to work out, lift weights, run, manage your weight and help the team out.  Are you disciplined to get out of bed and get to work and produce for your family and to meet your goals.

8- Communication skills- Can you openly communicate with people in a positive and meaningful way.  Can you talk business like and not use slang and street terms in conversations.  Are you a good listener and have positive skills people see when you communicate with them.  Do you sound educated (I am not talking college educated).  

9- Good body language- Do you carry yourself in a positive manner.  Do you sit upright, keep good eye contact and other positive body language.  Do you know how to present yourself, shake hands and make people feel relaxed around you.  Are you too chilled at times and can you turn it on and off as needed.

10- Coachable- Lastly and most important to me.  Are you coachable, teachable, and able to be mentored. Can you accept feedback and loss with dignity and respect.  Are you part of the solution or part of the problem.  Do you take advice from someone much older, more knowledgeable and experienced and apply it to become better.  Or are you a hotshot know it all that will eventually fail because you know more about a 30 year veteran coach about your position or saw it on a video game.  (believe me folks, this is a reality nowadays)!

There are other things you could put on this list.  But these are the things that cost you nothing but time, energy and work ethic.  These are the basic skills needed in sports, work, life and play that can make you successful whether you are a backup, first string star or do a common job.  These skills will make you stand out in the crowd, rise above others and set you on a path that others envy and want to be on.  They may not admit it, but ultimately they see your success and skill set and desire to be like you.

Spirit Chronicles- Divine Dreaming

I dreamed that I had an out of body experience during sleep. I died in my sleep for a few minutes and went to Heaven. Upon reaching Heaven I was immediately at the feet of the most powerful, light and force imaginable. It was so overwhelming, in a positive manner that I could not react, look up or move. I was frozen at the feet of my Savior and Lord Jesus Christ. I could not look up but knew it was him. He communicated with me mentally without words. He wanted me to know that I would be OK and to keep faith.

This dream occurred during a very rough time in my life where my wife and I were experiencing job loss, money issues and had two small children. I had lost my job at a company, not to be named after nearly seven years of committed service. I was betrayed at the job by an upper level manager that I trusted and had lots of confidence in. Anyways, that committed service got me released for something I truly did not do and it impacted my thoughts on humanity, who I was as a person and man.

Not being able to feed your family and find a job was so overwhelming that I had reached a boiling point in life. I had shut down and was not myself and it was impacting everyone on the household. The worst thing a father ever wants to not be able to do is provide for his family. I prayed every night for help, guidance and grace for my family and self. Once I had this dream it set in motion many more occurrences with forces that we all are yet to understand fully.

I can tell you that the glory of Heaven is unimaginable, it is glorious, and beautiful to say the least. At the time I didn’t really understand why I went to heaven, maybe it was a calling, maybe it was a warning, maybe it was a divine intervention for a normally loving, caring, and considerate person that had become something else. I thank God for giving me the dream, intervention, experience, call it what you want.

It changed the direction of my life and set me on a path to begin teaching public school exceptional children and I have never looked back. The woman that betrayed me died a few years later of cancer and it was sad. I had held onto some bad feelings about her and did not want to allow that to keep me from moving forward. Besides, she was human and we all make mistakes and do things we shouldn’t to people.

My advice would be to not let this type of thing get to you. It will eat you up from the inside out and destroy your life. Holding onto hate, anger, fear, and all those other ungodlike things will set you on a path that leads to the devil taking hold of your life and controlling you. When you get hurt, accept it, face it and overcome it. God only knows how to heal those wounds, do not try that on your own. Seek God’s grace and forgiveness before you begin to ask others to do the same.